This month my freshman year ended, friends are leaving and going to different schools. Friends are choosing what is best for them. Friends that I saw everyday of my freshman year I’ll have to make time to see on scattered Saturdays throughout next year. Things are changing. My sophomore year will look drastically different than my freshman year did. And that’s a good thing and I’m okay with that. It’s exciting but also it’s hard let go a little bit. I have to remind myself that the two people I’ll miss the most are the people that I have the strongest relationships with. Both friendships are full of love and I know that we will always care about each other.
Since all these thing are changing, being uprooted and replanted, I’ve been reminded that although seasons change Jesus’ love remains. There is so much comfort and promise in the endless, unshakable love of Jesus. I have also been reminded that people who have actually made a difference in my life will be close — I’ll always have a bond of love with them. I’ll love them forever.
All this change and extra time because of summer has made me think of presentness and purpose. When I don’t have a lot to do I struggle with purposelessness and pointlessness. There have been a few teary nights that ended in relief and prayer. I’m trying to learn to be present, to learn to listen to the voice of my Father. I need to learn stillness. Maybe presentness is learned with quietly listening and learning how Jesus speaks to me personally. Right know I’m struggling with remembering to pray throughout the day and make Jesus apart of every thing, because I know that true purpose only comes from Him. I’m learning that I have to find my purpose in ordinary moments of prayer, listening, and learning about myself. Through getting to know Jesus better, I will better understand what He wants me to do and how He wants me to live. So, I’m learning and Jesus has so much grace for me as I’m trying to figure things out. I have to remember how deep God’s love is, my Father’s love is guiding my steps. My Father’s love surrounds me, His grace and protection will never leave me.
“And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power all together with the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge — that you may be filled to the measure of the fullness of God.” Ephesians 3:17-19
your Father is guiding your steps
please go check out this beautiful video about living presently that my lovely friend mackie made: https://youtu.be/pc_-zeWz2xA